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Post by Beverly Nicole Osbourne on Aug 5, 2009 23:48:52 GMT -5
better run for cover, you're a hurricane full of lies [/font] and the way you're heading, no one's getting out alive.
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Ok, well I suppose I should start one of these online blogs. I think I am going to need one to vent into. You can read it or not. Personally I don't care. This is for me and me only, but i made it open so you guys can see how I am feeling. I guss I should tell a bit about my self, but being a popstar you guys already know allot. Well, My name is Beverly, but I go by Bev or Bevy. I am currently Sixteen. My best friend is Asher and Jacob. I love those two boys dearly, But the guy that holds my heart 100% is Jesse Relient. My favorite food is sushi and my favorite color is yellow. I think its bright and wild like my personality. Hmm I feel like I am rambling a bit so I am gonna go. I'll right more another day.
[/size] Beverly Nichole Osbourne
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Post by Beverly Nicole Osbourne on Aug 14, 2009 5:08:22 GMT -5
better run for cover, you're a hurricane full of lies [/font] and the way you're heading, no one's getting out alive.
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Well drama drama is all this camp has to bring, I just don't understand it. Since I have came here I have just been so angry and allot of bad things have happened to me. First the whole Jesse thing is driving me crazy. I think he thinks that i want him to change for me and thats sooo not true. I fell in love with the Jesse he is nothing else. I wouldn't change for him at all, because who i am is not based on who I am with. I would still be the same Beverly I am, but much happier and not this angry bev that has taken my place. The other thing that breaks my heart is this picture I found of my family two Christmas's ago.
from left to right the people in this picture is: My ex boyfriend, me, My friend Hannah, my little sister Noah, my big brother trace, my mommy Tris, my other sister Brandi, my other brother braydon, and my ma maw. my dear sweet family that is mostly gone. My me maw died a year ago and it still breaks my heart. Then my momma and daddy died a few weeks ago from a car crash and then my little sister passed four days ago. She was only seven so it wasn't fair at all. She didn't get to live her dreams. She wanted to be like me, the better me. She had a voice like an angel and I was sure that she could have been a pop star by the age of fourteen. I reamber this one time me and her was singing this song i wrote the driveway together. God, I miss her so much. Now its only me, trace, Brandi, and braydon left. Four kids without anybody except each other. Its funny because before this happened i thought i knew everything about me, but I don't. I know nothing at all. I got nothing to show anyone who Beverly Nichole Osbourne is. That scares me a bit. Who am I? A pop star? A broken girl? A lost girl, a nobody? I just don't know. God, I don't want to start crying to i am going to change the subject.
So uhm, I finally ate. Yay. well not really. It was either i eat and come out of my cabin or i would have to be sent to the hospital and miss out on camp. I think I may end up leaving, but I am not sure yet. Mabye go home to my family and spend some time with them? Idk. Hmm well something else that happened is that i was in the chartroom and then the bitch Maia had to come on and say no one gives a shit about me. I was about to run to her cabin and kick her ass. Nobody has a right to say that to anyone. I may hate her with a burning passion, but I would never tell her that. its like saying someone is worthless and noone is that. She can call me a slut, bitch, whore, drama queen what ever. But don't say no one cares about me. As much as she doesn't want to admit it she knows her brother cares for me, and her best friend, and her crush. Its weird. We used to be friends and then it just turned to hatred. Ok, well i am going on and on again so I'm heading off here. Peace
P.S: RIP Billy Ray Osbourne, Trisha Maria Osbourne, Noah Hope Osbourne. I love and miss you guys <3
[/size] Beverly Nichole Osbourne
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